.. aku dan katrina-ku ..

:: kadang-kadang aku rindu ::

2011-08-13T09:47:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum ...

Aduhai, pagi2 dh tegelincir ... sakit abut ku!!! d skulah lagi tu .. waaa ramai owhs ... silly silly silly .. lantai tile yg basah .. nyeh ..

So here I am, missing my blogging days .. Reading back the craps I wrote during yesteryears .. huhu .. most of the time I dont even remember apa sebenarnya yang ku maksudkan .. toink .. Lets try to make a comeback ..

Banyaknya kerja pending .. aduhai ... -_-"

:: kadang-kadang andai kau tahu ::

2011-07-13T09:52:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum .....

It has been a looooooooooooooooong while ... Ada rasa kan update this blog, tapi sudah menghadap blank page atu, my mind goes blank ..

Yesterday was having a bad day .. Bad day in a sense that I dont feel I can manage this career that Im pursuing .. I feel I cannot do it .. sighs .. And Im hearing all this uncertainty lagi, makin tia demotivated ..

bah .. off lu .. the lappy is going to die .. abis battery .. toink ..

:: kadang-kadang mesti merasa terjatuh supaya menjadi lebih kuat untuk bangkit kembali ::

2011-03-12T12:37:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

I love free wifi .. Nda jua sampai2nya kan bali one for my own .. toink .. Lets put it on the list of things to buy ..

Dear fiance, I want to pamper myself kay .. Udah2 ler bali stupur yang at the end of the story hanya tersimpan cantik dalam almari jadi display .. Thank you .. Walau apapun, I still lebiu <3

Mase bnyk buku kerja n kertas ujian balum bemark .. toink .. marksheet yg memaningkans lagi ... waaa ..

I doubt I'll be enjoying my weekend .. kerja kerja kerja .. and doa slamat for mama n bapa rimba yang kan umrah next week ..

Ciao bella

:: kadang-kadang kau butakan hatimu sendiri ::

2011-03-10T10:51:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Ive been neglecting you selalu .. I dun have the inspiration mcm dulu-dulu .. plus no hp yg bleh blogging mcm dulu2 ..

New year, new work place, new status .. mcm going well tapi mase jua berliku-liku .. New status doesnt make any difference .. I dont feel secure .. mebe sampai bila2 pun tetap insecure .. I hate that I have doubts .. I care too much tpi ahernya sakit sendiri .. Tahniah .. I deserve to be treated, appreciates and respected as the way I do to you .. Thanx .. Im tired sudah .. Jangan biar smpai aku jadi ignorant .. Jangan anggap aku nda dpt buat what you can do ...

mengeluh dan terus mengeluh .. astagafirullah..

:: Kadang-kadang aku .... ::

2011-01-12T21:56:00.003+08:00

Selamat Bertunang you and me .. 31hb Disember 2011

:: kadang-kadang keliru ::

2010-05-28T14:41:00.001+08:00

im scared .. im confused .. aku maunya apa? sighs

:: kadang-kadang aku telah diketuk oleh kenyataan ::

2010-05-24T00:32:00.004+08:00

blocked nose n ears pun .. thanx reality for dropping like a bomb on me ..

nda ku pandai handle semua ani .. things to pay off namun kaching nya mau yg turun dri langit bisa? .. finding ways to tell my mum abt dot dot dot .. report yg mesti antar rah nelson wen urg lain nda payah buat .. biar tia fail TP kali .. Buhsan! Bh nangis nangis .. smbung nangis .. Sighs

p/s: Happy 8 months .. Te quiero mucho mi amor ..

:: kadang-kadang love is all around ::

2010-05-03T05:06:00.001+08:00

Salam all ..

Im feeling it again .. After a rocky 6th, mostly due to my paranoia n mebe dot dot dot, I feel <3 ..

we're back looking at things mcm last time .. I need to understand that the timing is not right .. And owh, went to nini again yesterday, doa selamat for babu .. Hope she gets well .. Amin!

:: kadang-kadang the bimbo in me ver1.89 ::

2010-04-30T08:23:00.001+08:00

Dua kali dh I type post d cni tpi semua ilang pasal ........ I pressed the back button on my hp ani (-.-") .. Owh well ..

Selamat berhari Jumaat to all .. Last Friday was bittersweet .. I drove to him pasal aku kana ignored .. Abislah aku .. But, Alhamdullilah, everything is normal masa ani .. Im trying to have a paranoia-less dis week n im lovin it .. Apakans ?! Haha ..

bh ee .. Lets tidur balik :x

:: kadang-kadang jangan terlalu cemburu ::

2010-04-24T11:51:00.001+08:00

I love you ..

:: kadang-kadang rela ku pujuk ::

2010-04-22T18:38:00.001+08:00

I did it again .. No txts or mscalls .. ='( imy

:: kadang-kadang aku rasa jauh ::

2010-04-21T01:38:00.001+08:00

sighs .. pls jgn paranoid .. pls hold on ..

:: kadang-kadang ku tak sanggup ::

2010-04-13T00:24:00.002+08:00

kenapa begitu payah kan fikir positif ani kan?!? Knapa i cnt be a part of his fb? Hati amat rapuh .. Bagaimana kan mengharungi empat hari lgi kan bersemuka? Ada hati yg lain perlu ia jaga ka? No!

:: kadang-kadang cinta kristal ::

2010-04-12T05:53:00.001+08:00

I miss him ..

:: kadang-kadang mencari hati emas bukannya mudah ::

2010-04-09T21:10:00.001+08:00

Alhamdullilah a good Friday .. At least I shud be less paranoid after this .. Buang th uri atu .. Think positive ..

Drove to his house dis morning .. Wlupun aku telat harharhar .. Den melawat the aunt at his nenek's wif his mother .. The aunt seemed ok lh jua, Alhamdullillah .. Mudah2an she gets well, amin! .. Had Pizza Hut for breakfast wawa .. Parents nya concern pasal aku drive sorg2, suweeeet ehe

bila d tanya .. ku dgr jwpan 'taun dpn' ;) .. Mungkin?

oh, last nite out cruising with dayat n him .. totally unplanned .. he insisted pun .. Hee

ok lh .. Heartburn ku dri tdi dh nyeh

i love u ~~

:: kadang-kadang perlu sabar ::

2010-04-04T12:04:00.001+08:00

Currently at a wedding .. Tunggu waktu kan mkn .. He's at a wedding too with his dad .. Alhamdullillah, it seems like hes back .. Mebe it was my uberparanoia or or or ..

This is my choice .. Choosing to stay .. Choosing to have faith n trust in him .. Choosing to hold on to his words n promises ..

I love him ..

:: kadang-kadang karena ku cinta kau ::

2010-04-02T10:32:00.001+08:00

Happy 25th Birthday to Beh Dayat kemarin =) .. Had a late lunch with her n Vevie .. So much fun wlupun skajap .. N i didnt join Shabu2 with the other girls pasal I didnt reli feel dat well .. Blame my uri-ness yg buat lack of sleep ..

:: kadang-kadang jadi bingung ::

2010-03-31T08:56:00.002+08:00

Everyday is a constant battle .. Trying to fight with myself .. Im always trying to assure myself .. And Im in need of others assurance that everything is fine ..

Yes, everything is fine ..

:: kadang-kadang aku tak ingin ragu ::

2010-03-31T01:08:00.001+08:00

Berat sungguh mengawal perasaan .. Terutama perasaan cemburu .. Mana mungkin aku dapat lari ..

Im trying to remind myself, buang perasaan cematu .. Keeping in mind that shes just trying to distract me or even us .. Ya Allah, jauhkan kami daripada perasaan sebegini ..

Trust and faith .. InsyaAllah ..

and owh, graduating robe's fitting .. Wow, Im going to graduate .. Mudahan jua lulus, Amin .. Finally graduating =) InsyaAllah

:: kadang-kadang ku percaya kamu ::

2010-03-30T17:41:00.002+08:00

Wat a day yesterday was .. Lack of sleep .. Lack of appetite .. Even McD was hard to swallow .. After reading wat she sent him, how can I not be .. Sighs .. So had a bittersweet date last nite .. I am holding to his words and promise .. Thats all I have got .. I will not bck down .. Eventually, the date went well .. Going out again later with him .. ~Tuhan tolong aku untuk yakinkan hatinya .. Buat dia memilihku jadi cinta sejatinya~

:: kadang-kadang hati segelap earth hour ::

2010-03-27T23:43:00.001+08:00

Unstable again .. How to console this heart? How to not feel insecure? Why do i feel like theres something wrong? Why am i paranoid? Hopes r really high and sighs .. Why do i feel like hes so far away dis past few days or its jst me being paranoid .. I want him back please .. Sighs

:: kadang-kadang aku lapar ::

2010-03-24T11:03:00.001+08:00

Apparently elaun kuar dh .. Im dreading end of April nanti when aku skint to bones pasal yg ani awal kuar uwaaaa ..

neways .. It's our 6th =) Alhamdullilah .. Te queiro mucho mi amor ..

:: kadang-kadang ku tak peduli bila ku benar-benar cinta mati ::

2010-03-23T13:02:00.001+08:00

Last nite went out with 2 of my best girls .. Thanx babes .. Im trying to be positive .. Trying to limit my stalking time .. Trying to haf faith and put more trust .. Te quiero mucho mi amor ..

:: kadang-kadang aku obses ::

2010-03-22T09:36:00.002+08:00

I can't get her comments out of my head even though Im still not sure if it was meant for me or not ..

At the end of the day, Ive become posessive and obsessive .. But then again so what .. I wasnt even mad at her in the first place nor did I kacau her .. I was just jealous .. But Im trying to chill .. Trying to see the positive side to this habit of his .. Plus I believe its my karma and I have nobody else to blame but me ..

Trust and have faith .. Walaupun....

:: kadang-kadang aku rasa aku punyai hak itu ::

2010-03-22T01:44:00.001+08:00

D'Masiv - Dia atau Aku

Ini waktunya untuk memilih
Dia atau aku yang kan kau pilih
Meski perjuanganku tak sehebat dia
Tak semahal dia tak sekeras dia

Tuhan tolong aku
'Tuk yakinkan hatinya
Buat dia memilihku
Jadi cinta sejatinya
Ku akui ku terlahir
Tak seperti dia
Tapi ku punya cinta
Yang mampu sejukkan hatinya

Ku takkan pernah beri kata puitis
Karena ku bukanlah orang yang romantis
Ku takkan bisa seperti dia
Ku takkan bisa seperti dia
Ku takkan bisa seperti dia…

:: kadang-kadang perasaan menguasai kewarasan minda ::

2010-03-20T01:48:00.000+08:00

our first fight .. thanx to my insecurities and ctf .. Im hoping he wud be ok tomorrow .. Guilty ku ee .. Kana pujuk yet .. Sighs .. I wonder sapa delete dat wallpost?

:: kadang-kadang mesti percaya hidup itu indah ::

2010-03-08T21:05:00.004+08:00

I am declaring that I am on a rindu-spree .. and worst, crying-spree ..

I miss many people .. I miss my girls .. Lama ku nda jalan sama drg .. My fault mostly .. Then theres that person d langit .. Miss crita2 .. I wish I can share like dlu2 .. Oh well .. Confirm jua ni aku selfish .. Bah2, random .. Nda kamu paham kan ..

And ngedate prolly cancel esuk ..

and owh, aku tlah d assume bnyak blanja nanti .. likewise ..

also, currently having this 'kenapa mesti aku blame diriku with all the things that happened?' .. Malas ku ok .. Im tired .. I hope all this will pass .. I wish for things to be back to how it was like dulu2 but we all know that will never happen lagi ..

.... dan akulah sang mantan ....

:: kadang-kadang I wanna hold your hand ::

2010-02-24T23:38:00.001+08:00

What if it hurts me?
What if I break down?

Wishing for her to be more open and more accepting .. Amin ..

It's the 5th <3 .. Sometimes it feels just like a dream but Im grateful n thankful .. Te amo, flaws and all ..

june?

:: kadang-kadang jangan letih mencintai aku ::

2010-02-16T01:55:00.003+08:00

Sepanjang Hidupku - Pilot Band

Dengan Dirimu Kini ku Bahagia
Tak Henti Kau Berbagi Canda Tawa
Hilangkan Gairah Lelah Hatiku
Hadirmu Mengubah Arti Hidupku

Jadilah aku Tawanan Cintamu
Kuserahkan Seluruhnya Untukmu
Kupenuhi Semua Yang Kau Inginkan
Tiada Yang Penting Selain Dirimu

Sepanjang Hidupku Hanya Ingin Bersamamu
Di Setiap Waktu
Di Setiap Waktu
Sepanjang Hidupku Tlah Kurelakan Dirimu
Tuk Tinggalkan Aku
Tuk Tinggalkan Aku

Sejuk Kasihmu Sampai Ke Tulangku
Hingga Detak Jantungku Kan Berhenti
Senyum Manismu Sinari Hatiku
Tulus Setia Cintaku Hanya Untukmu

:: kadang-kadang aku lupa ::

2010-02-13T11:08:00.002+08:00

Malaika Kayla .. ai jeles ..

:: kadang-kadang andai saja aku bisa ::

2010-01-31T21:06:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

spent pagi n ptg pegi panggilan 2day .. back to back ok .. So my dearly lp-s alum siap .. I dun wanna pressure myself since my tp mates sdh siap .. or nxt wk sja aku start pressure ok ..

on another note, i wish dat i cn learn to care a bit more .. Wishing i cn express or even learn how its like to really share how i feel n cre about wat others r feeling too .. Te amo mi familia .. <3 :'(

glee .. those MD choir days =') .. Missing those days ..

:: kadang-kadang hidup di dunia tanpa udara ::

2010-01-29T15:38:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Selamat berhari Jumaat .. Staying home sja today .. Maximising my day by sleeping .. I have trouble waking up early nyeh .. My bad .. Been used to sleeping late n waking late .. Ani th jadinya =x

im missing my girls .. Havent been out wif dayat n vevie for quite a while .. Im sorry girls .. InsyaAllah i will try nxt time ..

Elaun, ai want u so badly .. Bagai telur di hujung tanduk sdh ni .. Huhu nda ngam plang tu aa kat =p .. I need a new tyre .. One is balding sdh .. The car needs to be serviced and the air-conditioning nda sjuk lgi .. So, money, come in pls ..

I want to finish my LPs semua by 2day .. I hope i can .. I dun tink i cn be creative .. Lame much .. Tomorrow is my last day of observation .. Start Monday, i'll be taking over Year 6 English and Year 4 MIB .. and i've been warned abt a boy in my year 4 that will be troublesome n the father of the boy will not hesitate to call the police, in favour of his boy lah tu .. Alahai .. All the best Kat and also to my BA Primary-ians ..

:: kadang-kadang ku biarkan ia berlalu ::

2010-01-27T12:54:00.006+08:00

Assalamualaikum ...

I hope it's not too late to wish Happy New Year 2010 to everyone .. May this year brings a lot more joy and happiness to all of us ..

Teaching Practice started last Monday .. and next week I would be starting to teach dalam erti kata yang sebenar .. Havent started constructing my lesson plans .. Baru ku buat rangka .. huhu so that doesn't count .. Environment of my school, so far ok .. And kami punya seating area ani sajuk tahap brabisan .. 2 huge air-cond on our left and right and kami right in the middle .. Suruhnya angin paus-paus .. wawa .. But Im not complaining .. =p ..

January ani bnyk birthday of my loved ones .. =).. So yea .. Selamat Hari Jadi buat Siti Nurhaliza (11th), Beh Vevie (12th), bf's <3 (13th), Ella (14th), Nenel (15th), Aneena (16th), Hanif (18th), Wawan & A. Christine (25th) ....

Owh, and it's our 4th .. and wishing for many more to come .. Amin ..

another happy news, Ka Nem gave birth to a bebe boi last 23rd January .. Alhamdullillah ..

:: kadang-kadang kenapakan ::

2009-12-27T03:21:00.000+08:00

Im still bitter that Sazzy n Nazril lost in Sehati Berdansa ..16% : 84% is this true? But its ok, they did a great job together wif their choreographer .. Sian ey .. They were awesome bh .. :(

:: kadang-kadang suwiiit ::

2009-12-26T03:04:00.000+08:00

I am officially on the hunt for DSN's latest cd wif KD .. Out on the 28th .. Hope aku tejmpa d Kuching .. Ai mau pls pls pls! And oso, the theme is purple tarkubi .. Ai suka banget

:: kadang-kadang bikin hatiku rindu ::

2009-12-25T13:24:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Merry Xmas to aunty Christine (aunty? Haha muda mase ok ..) .. Had fun last nite wif the sis n the family n ajis n aunty Christine .. Spent the nite at Jp bwa aunty begambr2 .. It was fun, its been a while .. Thanx kaka ku for dinner n movie n semuanya .. Lubs you xoxo

Watched The Chipmunks d mlm wif the nephews n ajis n aunty Christine .. Kiyots those chipmunks n chippettes (sp?) .. I want their version of Hot and Cold .. Huhu .. And owh, Avatar is seriously ahmazing .. Ehe

Picking up the bro n wife 2nite at the airport frm KK .. Then if jadi smbung ngedate .. Depends klu jadi or not ..

My handfone is playing tricks with me .. Bought a fake hp battery for me to use for the time being until i haf the budget to buy the original .. So the story is, if my fone abis batt smpi tetutup hp, i will find it hard to charge it .. Yesterday semalaman ku cucuk biar ia charging tpi nada hasil nyeh .. So then I tried aunty's charger, fortunately mau, so i assumed my charger yg mentel .. Tpi ku cuba charger ku tdi pgi, mau pun charging .. So d aher crita ini, sya kurang fhm akan masalah sebenar ..

Another story .. I tink I cn let go of him now .. Thanx for the memories .. I gez Im the weird-obsessive friend .. Even if hes there, well, the main thing is, seems like we're on different wavelengths .. sighs .. When its not there anymore, let go .. The more we wait, the more time we lose .. Di penghujung kisah, aku bukan siapa-siapa for him .. Wishing him to get the happiness that he deserves ..

~I see you~ Happy for it's the 3rd .. Wishing for many many more .. Te queiro mucho mi amor <3 <3 <3

:: kadang-kadang menjadi mimpi berterbangan ::

2009-12-22T20:59:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Today was a bit slow .. I guess .. The mind .. The heart .. The atmosphere .. Finding my solace at Rimba .. Thought I wud spend the day saja but smpi kul 7 mlm palng tu aa .. Atu pun hmm .. Nvm ..

Kinda bitter the whole day .. And right now Im saying to myself, "sabar Kartina .. apa-apa ani sabar pls" .. The mind is trying to compress and put away things .. Namun ...

Was hoping to meet him tonite but he changed his mind so tomorrow nite it is .. sighs ..

BNC is suspended (Aini, its ok ;p) .. So Im back at zero rah trivia .. Like literally zero .. haha .. Even Aziz is ahead of me .. But its ok .. I had my moment .. Ive achieved wat I wanted =) .. Nda payah ke jiwa kat owhs .. hehe .. Im hating that I cant type faster and with zero typo .. I hate that that that .. Nyeh .. Watevs ..

:: kadang-kadang ku mimpi tuk gapai bintang di langit ::

2009-12-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I’d ask for all the hate to be swept away
For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God
I’d pour my heart out on each page
I’d ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road…… we’re on

If I wrote a note to God
I’d say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness
Put some tenderness in our hearts
And I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So, So

If I wrote a note to God

(Charice - Note to God)

:: kadang-kadang cuma dipandang sepi ::

2009-12-22T01:24:00.001+08:00

Happy 65th Birthday to my mum yestrday .. Thanx to my sis for the effort wlupun .. Love u sis <3 ..

bitter owhs .. sleeping on it .. Sometimes it really hurts wen we try and try yet it doesnt give dat much meaning to somebody ..

:: kadang-kadang perubahan itu perlu ::

2009-12-18T02:49:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Salam Maal Hijrah 1431 .. Semoga tahun baru ini akan membawa aku dan kita semua kepenghijrahan yang lebih bermakna .. Amin!! ~~Semoga aku bleh kurang lampuh sedikit~~ .. astee .. kenapa nda serius ani kan?!? ..

Also, a big thanx to my friend,Aini for tagging me in one of her post .. click HERE .. =) .. Tentang bulan rupanya mase boleh menyentuh hati ..

Hijrah ... How I wish I can make real of the things that Im suppose to .. Namun, selangkah demi selangkah .. I dun care if some ppl say I might take a long time by taking those small steps, tapi biar aku sja yang faham apa yg ingin aku capai .. Im not the best person, daughter, sister, friend, student, soulmate, etc .. But Im sure to try and make the ppl that I love dearly happy ..

One has apologised .. But ntah aa .. I dun feel I haf to forgive .. I mean, I was sad when I knew, but who am I to judge one's reaction .. To me, one is still the same, someone dearly to me .. Aher kata, tiada kemaafan karna tiada kesalahan =) ..

Sampai bertemu .. ..

:: kadang-kadang I worry ::

2009-12-09T13:36:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

im at Ripas rite now bwa my mum for doc's appointment .. We r too early n i was too lazy to go home den jalan ke spital lgi .. Blik2 owhs ..

ive been sleeping late .. Mata ani mcm tau2 sja musim cuti .. Nyeh .. And currently hes away .. I dunno mana ia .. Worried much or just plain emo .. Uwaa .. I dun wanna be like dis .. Owh, jst got a txt .. Hp was in the car .. Sighs :/ .. Lets put a smile on this face, at least we get to meet tonite ..

lets talk abt sumthng else .. New moon was alright .. Ehe with dat lovey dovey lines wic wud make me go 'aww~ suweet' but dis time around i was laughing wawa silly me .. Mebe psl realitinya nda pernah pun ia cematu .. Random ok .. Owh, the wolves pack, hawtness ok bdn durang mcm c Rain rah Ninja Assassin .. Wowness! Haha dayat called me pervert =p

bh im out dlu .. The clinic buka sdh .. N he still makes me wonder .. IMH

:: kadang-kadang lighting nda bgus ehe ::

2009-12-07T04:23:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum..

selamat sambut .. Im finding it hard to sleep .. Jst wen i dun haf anyting to revise or work to komplet, yth timenya aku nda kalat mata .. Wonderingtone ku ee ..

krg aku akan meneropong bulan sambil cuci mata tengok lycan .. Apakan lycan ani? Mcm fulcan .. Ok, tiada intipati ni blog entry ani pasal kepala ningnong ok ..

last nite was kfc n wywy .. Aku blur kenapa my lappie nda dpt detect wifi .. So mcm stau gaban ku, wic in the end mau n i duno apa ku katik .. Den konon kn transfer pics but then nda jadi .. Memories of way back then .. I am now officially scared .. And yesterday woke up realising i had a bad dream .. Sighs .. Berdoa utk kebaikkan ..

kenapa the last few days aku emo ani kan? Owh tidak~~ pls go away ..

wondering if one thinks Im worth fighting for?

i dun want all these wat-if-s .. Ctrl A .. Del ..

Today is officially the start of my hols .. Whee~~

I love you, him, her, them, they, me, us .... <3

:: kadang-kadang aku pokerface .. napaan? ::

2009-12-06T01:38:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum ...

Im still up .. hanvnt started anything for later .. apanah? my final exam paper .. downloaded 2 past year exam papers and seems like really really hard ... and my head is currently having zero percent of espanyol ..

Had quite an emotional nite just now .. maybe i was laughing so much during the day or mebe im just being emotional and insecure and and and .. But, as a good fren told be, be grateful with what I have .. So here I am, trying to feel better .. =)

Had lunch gathering yesterday at Icebar ShabuShabu (luruska?)ehe .. It was fun because it was my first time there as well as everyone elses .. except for a few lah .. terserlah kebimbo-an ok .. haha .. aku apath lagi, terlebey2 bimbo .. but it was fun .. good food .. good company .. yg bitter buat mcm nada .. haha .. beh zanna, thanx for organising and being all worried .. In conclusion that wud prolly my last time ke sana kali .. not my cup of coffee .. Mungkin pasal aku malas masak2 dpn urg wawawa

I really cant wait for Monday .. my movies day out .. Im gonna be out the whole day .. ahha konfiden .. But first, KFC nite later .. No, bukan aku .. its him .. haha .. Rite now I feel like Snack Plate-ing .. Tpi if aku kanyang, Colonel burger .. KFC athirah atu few of the cashiers apal udh liat kami .. suruhnya embarrassing .. namun ..

bah eeeeee .. i need to ingatkan all the numbers, words, prepositions grammar .. a semester's lessons crammed in a few hours or less .. I just hope i pass .. sigh .. im waaaay left behind ..

Adios ..

mi es gorda haha .. revise pls!!

:: kadang-kadang bersama bintang ::

2009-11-29T21:43:00.003+08:00

this week .. it's the 2nd .. Alhamdullillah ..

:: kadang-kadang fikiran kelabu ::

2009-11-29T00:57:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

My deepest sympathy and condolences to Mali and family for the lost of the beloved father .. Semoga rohnya di cucuri rahmat .. Amin! Al-Fatihah ..

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha .. Hari yang membwa ku ke suatu yang lebih serius .. Mudah2an yg tersirat di hati akan tercapai jua .. Amin! .. Memang nerbes ya amet n he didnt help to calm me down .. Nyeh .. Haha .. Nerve-wrecking .. Dlm kepala, i kept reminding supaya jgn bimbo wawa .. But at the end of the day, i gez twas alright .. P/s: bukan E-day wawa .. I stil lap u beh zanna ;p

My sunday is gona be pack .. (1)Dgni mama tulis nama rah jmptn (2) open haus at my sis's in-law (3) jln wif Lee kn lwt Dayana n bebe Rara (4) ngedate mlm .. Haha nda jua pack bnr .. Awu2, mana ada ku masukkn revise dlm list ku hari ni kan .. Andang sengaja ku .. Sama jua aku kana wanted buat everythng last minute .. Haha jgn bitter pls!

Bh, im off trying to finish wat im suppose to .. Babai ..

<3 LOVE is the word that explains how I feel for you <3

:: kadang-kadang aku mau main hujan ::

2009-11-23T23:38:00.001+08:00

2 papers done .. 4 to go .. 1 esuk but im too sleepy to read anythng .. Alamaks

kfc athirah tdi =) bru jua 4 days, aku rasa aku over2an sdh .. And he ingat =) ai suka .. ai suka .. Mwahs

:: kadang-kadang aku mulut longkang ::

2009-11-23T00:31:00.002+08:00

Got 2 papers later and y do i stil haf the time n mind to blog? Pasal aku bimbo .. Urg lain rajin, so that makes me less rajin .. Im not making any sense .. Blame dis stomach dat wants to be fed at this hour .. No wonder my tummy is bulging .. Haha too much info Kat~~

wat i look 4ward today is dat it's dot dot dot .. Ehe nice~ mls ku mention, otherwise ppl will stereotype me some more .. Calm down Kat~ dududu ..

owh well .. Nothing is getting into my head .. Lets hope i'll manage to answer ..

apart from kfc chicken and prosperity burger, im craving 4 dat cake yg alum masak .. Wawa abislah ko kat

:: kadang-kadang aku bukan superwoman ::

2009-11-19T02:18:00.001+08:00

Waduh .. Tdi terasa mau update but now mcm melas owhs haha .. But then again, dis is more relaxing than those numbers ..

downld a few songs tdi rah liyana .. Huhu menyampati aa .. Playlist for 2nite: KD - aku wanita biasa .. Taio Cruz - break your heart .. Lady Gaga - Bad Romance .. Kisah berbeda n mood pun berlainan .. Lagu KD atu feel brabis n so sad .. I noe dis song lagu lawanan 4 Separuh Jiwaku Pergi tpi Aku Wanita Biasa ani lagunya lawa .. Mebe aku ndang jiwang yth ke jiwa.. Wawa, bek jua ada lagu yg rancak supaya aku nda bertapak d mood ke jiwa n tiada tangisan okeh ..

tadi aku kfc lgi .. Tdi mlm n kemarin ptg n the nite b4 .. Ptg i went wif liyana n tdi mlm wif him .. Haha skalinya cashier kfc d athirah atu tagur kami slalu ke sana .. Apa nda, mlm sebelumnya pun the same kfc .. Abislah, setiap minggu kfc .. Lampuh lampuh lampuh .. Weird plang tdi alum jua ku langu kfc ani, mase pun ku snack plate n my latest menu, colonel combo .. I gez its the company dat makes the food bearable as a gud fren once said .. N i believe it now .. ;)

aku mls crita sal xm or revision or assignments or grades .. Lets not demotivate me ;p lain urg lain caranya cope .. I noe my way is such a bad one tpi at least i have a way .. For now ..

bh crita sal post xm .. Ada aura2 aku kn naik aeroplane nxt mth .. Lama dh ku nda naik aeroplane .. If jadi jua lah .. Kan blik ke kampong .. Wawa .. Kuching .. Hal kedua, my kaka mau kursus d SG, kan bisai if dpt juin .. Huhu tpi nda lah dpt shopping tu aa .. Begambr sja pls ..

masa tues nite, jmpa uncle d brakas .. Tahniah .. Erks .. Haha ..

bh bh, aku dpt rasakan c dayat marak2 matanya rah ku yg idle-ing frm kaja ku .. Hehe =p .. Ko 2012 nda bwa aku

babai

:: kadang-kadang menuju ke destinasi ::

2009-11-17T01:06:00.001+08:00

report report report report ..

i miss siti nurhaliza

n im sleepy ..

random owhs

:: kadang-kadang aku-statik lagi ::

2009-11-16T12:38:00.000+08:00

~~please please please kamu jangan nakal
ku pergi sebentar
bukan untuk curang
please please please kamu jangan nakal
nanti aku datang
bawa yang kau pesan

diriku untukmu~~

wawa lucu dey lagu ani .. cheeky .. Huhu .. By Alif Satar / OIAM - Jangan Nakal .. It's on repeat sambil2 berassignmentsss ..

p/s: i heard my maths paper is dis sunday .. Nice~ huhu ..

:: kadang-kadang i wanna know what love is ::

2009-11-16T00:10:00.005+08:00

i wish i was there :( ..

pics credit: liyana naznim .. forum.cari.com.my

:: kadang-kadang cinta tak datang hanya sekali ::

2009-11-15T16:07:00.002+08:00

my mind has gone haywire .. I forgot dat i haf science kemarin wlupun kana text twice .. i really thought hari monday since i haf spanish dis monday .. The due dates are over-due .. congratulations!!

so here i am spending my time and pouring my mind thus making the over-dues over dan over lagi .. whee~~

- ku sadari, wlu orang itu dirasakn amat sesuai atas dasar bnyk persamaan, tetapi orang itu bukan yang terbaik .. persamaan belum menjanjikan apa-apa

- ku sadari, rahsia tidak mungkin akan jadi rahsia .. di aher cerita, mesti ada yang tahu .. karna aku sendiri alpa .. dalam ku berfikir ia untuk yang terbaik, namun terjadi sebaliknya lalu kepercayaan pun hilang ..

- ku sadari, setiap orang punyai hak untuk meluahkan apa yang terpendam .. namun .. well, u get i mean .. kalau nda pun, biarlah aku saja yang faham .. Im just trying to be positive .. Bitterness is still surrounding me .. dari segenap penjuru .. huhu .. nice

- ku sadari, cinta kita semua berbeda .. =) anything as long as it makes us happy ..

.. buenas tardes ..

:: kadang-kadang random ::

2009-11-07T03:28:00.002+08:00

bored .. wants to sleep but having a hard time to .. rindu wlupun .. reconnecting to msn wen tebangun is making me wonder .. sekadar .. tidur waaaa .. my thigh ada bruise kaler purple and i dunno how i got it .. lame .. random .. rawak .. mi amor, te quiero mucho <3

:: kadang-kadang terkejiwa juwa ::

2009-11-07T00:48:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

biar plang aku bertiduran d hari jumaat ku kemarin wawa .. Stelah membz for a few weeks at least now ada sdikit ruang utk bernafas .. Well, nothing productive .. Didnt try to finish off my Maths n LnD .. Those r the only ones left but a lot to do .. Erks ..

went to cheezbox kmarin wif two of my favourite persons dlm dunia ani .. ajes n alai .. Jst like dlu2 .. Owh cheezbox squid, u mase nyaman mcm u used to .. Tpi kenapa ada bitterness d kadai atu .. Nda ku mau lg rah waiter yg lelaki atu ..

talking sal bitterness .. Me n him X sdh kfc qlap .. Haha nada plang papa jst nda comfortable plus aku nda mau g rah cashier lelaki atu mcm sarcastic .. Nyeh .. Awu, kami mase mengkfc .. Infact, dis week sja sdh 3 kali .. Haha im just melayan-ing his cravings .. Tpi he sed nxt wk nda kfc .. Yaeys .. Kway tiaw seafood here i come .. And ajes, no, alum begambr k .. Wawa jgn mare owhs

bh, im off to bed soon .. Ciao ..

:: kadang-kadang tak bisa ubah waktu ::

2009-11-04T21:35:00.002+08:00

kadang-kadang coba untuk memahami sifat, keadaan dan keterbiasaan .. sememangnya tidak mau lemah dan menjadi seperti lalang yang hanya menurut kata .. kalau pun menurut kata, itu kerana kemahuanku dan bukan kerana kemahuan orang lain ..

okay, permulaan yang terover sdah .. kenapa ia over? pasal aku mcm menyamal .. mebe ia bukan jenis yang hmm .. forget it .. mesejnya yng ku biarkan bebunyi2 ...

Im going out wif Dayat now n i mite not tell .. but eventually i will ..

why am i going out? padahal esuk i haf closure and homework to present to Mr Walker .. and yg last week, idea yang kana bagi red card atu pun alum beusai .. My head is still tired after all of those Pendidikan Jasmani and Pergerakan Kreatif's presentations, performances and suchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .......

:: kadang-kadang off-task ::

2009-10-29T00:48:00.000+08:00

P/s: aku menantimu owh elaunku ..

keadaan sajuk yg memualkn :/

nescafe yg nda dpt buat aku brjaga .. Nyeh

:: kadang-kadang i lost count ::

2009-10-29T00:38:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

i lost count .. I reli had to ingatkn semula .. Zinger vs snack plate .. Snack plate n snackplate .. Mini bucket .. Snack plate n snack plate .. Sp n zinger, sp n sp and tadi sp n sp .. Luruskah? I dun ingat nemore :( so it cud be the 6th or 7th .. Abislah ..

been having such a bz wk .. 4 tasks dis week plus another 3 alum ku submit wawa .. Done wif my science presentation (wic was short and crappy, bila jua nda) and PK's drama muzikal .. Esuk maths' main activity to show to Mr Walker plus my SOW, object lesson n Typical day yadayada, wic i owe him .. Sunday wud be my group's turn 4 'sukan rekreasi' .. Whee~

nxt wk wud b another story .. PK's LP presentation n Lnd's report wic i doubt aku antar on time .. Maths antar SoW n i bet ada tu activity 4 closure .. N the week after dat antar lp .. Kenapa th aku melengah2kn ani .. Blik rumah, kelelahan tia ku .. Alahai~

rupanya tinggal 2wks of blajar .. Aku takut kana bar spanish hahaha antam tia .. Yes, I cn finish everythng off, wlupun lmbt, wlupun telat, i will get there .. I gez atu cra ku .. Haha indenial much

bh, aku harus pergi .. Kerja menanti ku .. Time ku ada mood ani jua ..

-Syukur Alhamdullilah-

:: kadang-kadang imy ::

2009-10-27T02:08:00.000+08:00

.. pastikan kau dengan aku .. jangan ada cinta lain ..

:: kadang-kadang yang pertama ::

2009-10-25T22:47:00.002+08:00

. .... ...

:: kadang-kadang tertanya-tanya ::

2009-10-22T02:00:00.001+08:00

Harap maaf nombor yang awda dail tidak dapat dihubungi~ instead of ~bila yang tertulis untuk yada yada yada~ .. I hope ur hp bis bateri pasal im a bit bitter over here .. Bitter? Mcm word of the week .. Dri segenap penjuru but yea, i gez dats life ;p .. It'll get back to normal ..

tahniah kartina sebab alum buat maths starter for krg kul 10am .. N i haf to go to ripas pagi2 later sal Ka Ayang kan operate krg mebe, appendics mah~ n sian mcm nada dgn nya .. But ive got clas n meeting n presentations .. Lets hope i cn satisfy them all ..

im scared sal i haf science presentation dis monday .. Takuts sal slalunya deep n aku jarang ckp benda2 deep like laser technology n its controversies .. Maiyama ..

nways, happy belated bday to my beloved kaka last 20th Oct n bebe Liyah kmarin .. Much love <3 ..

i shudnt be off-task tpi siuk wa off-tasking ani wheee~

dan kepada anak uncle aji, charge tia betri hp aa, kan membuat panggilan rindu juwa ku ni ;p

:: kadang-kadang aku perlu tidur ::

2009-10-16T01:39:00.000+08:00

Im sleepy .. hes asleep .. Theyre asleep .. Lame .. Im off to bed ..

:: kadang-kadang aku ingin bisa begitu ::

2009-10-14T00:19:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

kfc .. hes craving for dat .. 3 kali dh ke sana .. Suruhnya kana wanted leh urg kfc atu ekeke ..

im sleepy .. Mau tidur .. Esuk ada aerobic presentation, i hope aku bleh ingat the steps .. Huhu .. Im excited ..

bh, im off to bed ..

-imy-

:: kadang-kadang bimbo ::

2009-10-12T04:21:00.002+08:00

bila jua nda bimbo .. lols

yes, im still up .. pasalnya kemarin, as in Sunday, spent my day tidur .. dududu~ .. then melam, ke kay eff si .. ehe .. so meaning tadi kul 2 pagi blatih aerobik wic umm im finding it hard .. krg th minta ajar dri Mali .. on a positive note, i think i can cope wlupun aku bebal skit and of course karau .. wawawa ..

and then, was thinking kan proceed to my next task, lain teplang .. trivia ku plang .. eheks .. abislah ko Kat .. and owh, FB is distracting me .. yes, yes, im trying to find something to blame ;p ..

bah ee .. im going to haf such a long day today .. 8 am til 6 pm .. Maths, Science, aerobic, Maths and Spanish .. Wows .. Siswi contoh ok .. hahah ..

babai ..

:: kadang-kadang papadom ::

2009-10-09T13:20:00.001+08:00

Waduh .. Such a hectic week yet my progress is stil selow .. Yesterday dgni dayat bli hp bru .. Huhu congrats n haf fun wif ur new pink LG KM900 .. N we watched Papadom n i loved it .. Wawawa aku menangis2 d wyg .. Bila jua aku nda over :/ ..

jst a short update .. Esuk is going to be a bz day .. Plus my lnd test .. /me needs to start revising .. Nyeh ..

you, ai rindu u :( .. misscall me some more pls .. jgn menjauh~

:: kadang-kadang kana cari ::

2009-10-07T03:38:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Selamat tujuh tahun my black bebe .. nanti ku hadiahkan satu sesi cucian luar dan dalam ok? .. alum mampu mau antar u pegi wax lagi ehe .. if only ai pandai, ai simonis u ..

PJ article presentation later .. then my long-overdue lnd test .. Sorry my classmates karna aku yg menyebabkan kamu alum trima merkah .. eks .. sauri mah~~ owh .. spatutnya getting back on the article report n slides .. wlupun 5 menit saja namun impak maksima ok .. haha .. im taking on paralympics .. i think ..

owh, tadi not long before one am .. ada bunyi dentuman yg sayup2 kedengaran .. sekajap mcm guruh .. skajap mcm bungapi .. wawa bukan main uri ku sampai ku ke beranda rasa kan mendengar dengan sahih bunyi apakah itu .. namun, aku tetap uri .. Bek jua ada FB aa, membaca status urg n the comments membuatkan ai tau bahawa it was for someone's bday =)

Bah ee .. i shudnt be off-task .. erks :/

:: kadang-kadang perubahan tetap berlaku ::

2009-10-03T00:47:00.001+08:00

Jst wen i thot im fine .. I struggle again .. Im sorry for being so distant ..

:: kadang-kadang .. ::

2009-10-01T14:49:00.002+08:00

kasian dey lho .. ehehe .. owh bebe ammar ku~

:: kadang-kadang benda yg dirancang tidak kesampaian ::

2009-09-30T00:43:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

I think c kwn atu tetidur .. huhu sians .. He just got back from braya d Pandan with mama and dada .. mama and dada .. ia yg tulis sebegitu .. and yes, we've jinxed it .. jgn th plan apa2 k .. haha .. wlupun plan yg lain2 nya sudah sebegitu jauh .. footie match, canceled .. nanti ia, ku minta byr pampasan kerna memberikan harapan .. ekek nda lah .. not his fault .. Family comes first .. Thats more important .. P/s: that's times 3 ... biar aku saja yg faham ..

tiada mood untuk benda lain .. owh .. karan tutup masa monday .. tpi aku joyride d krita .. hehe .. and tadi malam pun tutup . ngusut aii ok .. bnyk nyamuk .. baik jua 8ish atu on balik .. Alhamdullillah ...

Last Monday,finally i went to see the doctor .. tapi mcm i cant explain what i wanted .. but at least she understood most of it .. Had to take urine test n blood sample .. Appointment in 2 weeks time to see hows everything .. I want to be normal pls .. Had the urine test with the sis in law .. Good news mah~~ ;)

And as for me, the heart is floating .. :) .. Sharing only when the time is right

:: kadang-kadang tanpa amaran ::

2009-09-26T10:31:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum ...

Salam Aidilfitri .. Maaf Lahir dan Batin .. Maaf juga pada jemputan rumah terbuka yang nda kesampaian ku aga .. Kadang-kadang terpaksa memburu masa .. Kadang-kadang ngedate .. wawa outs ..

Semalam .. seharusnya tulis dalam buku diari namun buku diari itu sudah lama tidak dikemaskinikan .. Tapi semalam mesti ingat .. Yang pertama kalinya .. Astee .. Rumah nini .. Cruising .. :/ dududu~

Im hoping for a good journey ahead .. Dan ku percaya, Brunei ini amats kecil .. hehe

Slamat beraya~~

:: kadang-kadang :'( ::

2009-09-24T10:32:00.002+08:00

Such a sad song .. seperti luahan hati buat his ex-wife .. and aku yg menangis2 sepertinya separuh jiwaku ku pergi jua .. sighs :'(

Separuh Jiwaku Pergi - Anang Hermansyah

Separuh Jiwaku Pergi
Memang indah semua
Tapi berakhir luka
Kau main hati
Dengan sadarmu
Kau tinggal aku

Benar ku mencintaimu
Tapi tak begini
Kau khianati hati ini
Kau curangi aku

Kau bilang tak pernah bahagia
Selama dengan aku
Itu ucap bibirmu
Kau dustakan semua
Yang kita bina
Kau hancurkan semua

:: kadang-kadang bulan ingin sembunyi ::

2009-09-20T15:19:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Selamat Berpuasa buat yg teraher kalinya di bulan Ramadhan tahun ini .. Semoga kita berjumpa di Ramadhan yang seterusnya .. Seems like a hard one this year but no matter .. So, in advance, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri .. Dri hati yg tulus, Maaf Zahir dan Batin atas segala kesalahanku .. Kekurangan semua dtg dri diri ini dan yang baik adalah dri Allah S.W.T .. Jika ada silap salah ku, tagur2 saja .. Jgn menjauh :)

Im not sure if I'll be braya-ing tapi I think Im gonna be at home sja ni esuk ehe .. If only ada astro ma~~~ dpt meliat rancangan hari raya .. and .. if only ada wifi mcm last year, siuksssss .. wawawa

bah .. ai out .. babai .. ai mau coklets itu lagi bole?

:: kadang-kadang paranoid ::

2009-09-19T10:21:00.002+08:00

paranoia ku datang lagi .. sighs .. very pessimistic and i hate it .. mebe hopes were that high and and and and .. bah .. ciao bella .. biarlah aku dengan kesugulan ku .. at least tetap ada d sana .. tidak hilang dan tidak pergi

:: kadang-kadang kata mu itu berbisa ::

2009-09-18T16:31:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Happy oneeightnine today .. Happy 3rd birthday to bebe ammar ku .. Ushu loves you .. Smoga menjadi anak yg baik dan soleh .. Amin!

emm, my amit passed away yesterday :( .. I cannot tahan when i see others menangis .. Alhamdullilah, jenazah selamat berkubur tadi pagi .. Al-Fatihah ..

on another note, kenapalah aku ni pemarah .. bwa2 besabar pls ..

kartina, slamat menyiapkan assignments .. Tiada istilah cuti raya ok .. Erks?!

p/s: dia lafazkan lgi statements bracuns .. Lho beneran?

:: kadang-kadang ai suka kaler tarkubi ::

2009-09-17T07:59:00.003+08:00

- my mini-purple bebe ehe .. -

-dreading today .. Walker's Object Lesson n LnD's test .. erksssss

:: kadang-kadang gue naif ::

2009-09-16T04:50:00.000+08:00

-kalats mata nieh ..

-lho buat gue keliru .. Statements bracuns itu ku harap ia bener .. Amin ..

-bck to bed ..

:: kadang-kadang aku katakan cinta bila cinta ::

2009-09-15T19:16:00.002+08:00

- Lampu hijau ..

- statement: "You're a part of me sudah nieh .. and thats a fact" .. ekeke .. manis

- i wants yg purple ok ..

- bila kau rindu katakan rindu .. usah kau ragu katakan rindu

- bah ke kadai ku dlul membali easi ..

:: kadang-kadang gue khayal ::

2009-09-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

dududu~ Mr Walker cakap kami his noty gurls .. wkakak .. cali mah~~ awu im sorry for not being so rajin as he wants me to be .. erks .. Kartina, work harder mah~~~

Dokter sudah ada d fb .. yang satu itu .. wawawa .. bh ciao ..

:: kadang-kadang aku hilang arah ::

2009-09-14T00:35:00.002+08:00

sighs .. kenapa pawuts ini mase sakit? .. :x .. kenapa hati ini mase rindu? .. Kenapa mase keterjauhan? .. Kenapa perlu menangis? .. Kenapa mase keterbelakang? .. Kenapa mase bermalas-malas? .. Kenapa mase begini? ..

// sungguh ku buta dalam cahaya .. sungguh ku lupa tika bahagia (Pintu Rindu - Siti Nurhaliza) //

:: kadang-kadang kau tahu ::

2009-09-12T21:40:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Apparently pawuts ku mase sakit mah~~ bila mau beraher? :x .. Dokter S sdh tiupi .. ehe kana tawari .. F.Y.I., ukan dokter bebenar okeh .. I didnt go to hospital since i assumed my sakit paruts biasa2 yg slalu ke jamban .. wawa .. And Im hoping esuk i can start balik apa yang telah lama terbengkalai .. alahai ..

Im stil idle-ing .. I blame the pawuts .. Sighs .. And I blame myself .. Haha mungkin karma ni atas memblakangkan janji ku .. Yes, pls, jgn ada McDonalds for at least a week .. Pls Pls Pls owh Katzzz ..

Anyways, been going back and forth from rimba and the hospital .. Tragedy ka? emm, I see it as a way for them both to see and realise whats really happening .. Take the positive side of it and become much better .. InsyaAllah, AMIN! .. :'(

Been trying hard to not go around cd shops to look for CT's latest album .. Pasal I bet alum ada tu .. Tadi drg from imeem (sp?) saja .. I want pls pls pls .. Erks .. Dokter suruh sabar .. :/ .. haha nda pedah2 kana label aku ni jenis pemajalan .. Or sememangnya itu aku .. ekeke .. oh well

Okeh lah .. Current mood is Ungu's album Penguasa Hati =) .. Saya suke saya suke .. Mood jiwang again .. dududu~ no ini bukan depressi atau stressi .. =)

Owh, baju raya ku wednesday .. haha .. bah .. ciao ..

My Babies .. daily dosages of happinesska .. ehe

wahhh~ itu baby ada dua bilah gigi mah~~

:: kadang-kadang .. engkaulah penguasa hatiku ::

2009-09-12T02:37:00.002+08:00

- Happy Birthday Remy -

- Sakit pawuts for the last few days .. nda siuk ok .. nyeh -

- I want Tahajjud Cinta .. When can I get my hands on it? .. Dokterku suruh aku bersabar .. :) -

- Trivia new season .. New nick .. emm malas main brabisan .. ehe ai melu ok .. nda bleh hardcore mcm last season .. ani lite2 saja .. And the questions are interesting .. Shows how much I DONT know -

- sajuks owh .. -

- bah tidur -

:: kadang-kadang empat musim itu ::

2009-09-08T00:04:00.004+08:00

assalamualaikum ..

17 hari sudah berpuasa namun .. I feel like Im back during my secondary years .. pasal? .. emm ada th tu .. Adakan ku bayar puasa ku ni .. erkssss .. heh

Bah .. Im thinking of going to the doctor's esuk, well, later lah tu kan .. Mebe lah .. If I haf the courage to .. Class is at 12 smbung PJ so til about 2.30 cematu .. Memang merandom much ni .. ekek ..

Something for me to look forward to .. Aku mau ct's Tahajjud Cinta .. pls pls pls .. Out on 10th September .. Tak sabar rasanye .. Bila jua aku ni penyabar kan ..

P/s: Bercuti dri menikmati McD for at least a week .. lols

:: kadang-kadang aku lupa, dia adalah terang dalam gelapku ::

2009-09-04T20:18:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

sememangnya sdah lama ku tinggalkan blog ku ani .. oh well .. :) .. cukup sekadar kamu tahu aku masih bernafas dan berusaha menjalani sisa2 kehidupanku ..

Status mood ketika ini adalah biru .. Ive been moody most of the days .. Ntah lah .. Dan hari ini aku hujan lagi .. Terima kasih rindu kerna telah membuat aku begini ..

Z E R O L I F E

selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa

. .... ...

:: kadang-kadang menangis kerna rindu ::

2009-08-25T19:29:00.001+08:00

Asbak Band - Ternyata salah mengenalmu

Kau pernah bilang
Aku yang terdalam
Kau simpan di dalam hatimu

Kau juga bilang
Di hembus nafasmu
Selalu kau sebut namaku

Tapi mengapa kau tinggalkan aku
Di saat aku butuh
Terlalu indah yang pernah kau bilang
Ternyata salah ku mengenalmu

Lupakan aku
Jelas kau permainkan aku
Aku tak mengapa
Ku biasa saja
Walau sedikit terluka

Lupakan aku
Banyak yang lebih darimu
Yang tak hanya bisa
Cuma bilang cinta
Dan manis di bibir saja

Kau pernah bilang
Aku yang terdalam
Kau simpan di dalam hatimu

Tapi mengapa kau tinggalkan aku
Di saat aku butuh
Terlalu indah yang pernah kau bilang
Ternyata salah ku mengenalmu

Lupakan aku
Jelas kau permainkan aku
Aku tak mengapa
Ku biasa saja
Walau sedikit terluka

Lupakan aku
Banyak yang lebih darimu
Yang tak hanya bisa
Cuma bilang cinta
Dan manis di bibir saja

:: kadang-kadang ada yang nda makan pujuk ::

2009-08-19T03:58:00.001+08:00

aiya .. mata ku nda mau dipujuk .. Cis! .. Waktu sebegini jua ia segar bugar .. erks ..

:: kadang-kadang hanya dalam mimpi ::

2009-08-19T01:31:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

it's happening all over again dis semester .. wif a handful of free periods, i tend to slack .. nyeh .. Its the 3rd week sdh my dear, bangun dan bngkit lah .. Erks ..

the 3rd wk is somewhat better .. Everyday is a constant battle .. Trying to make things better and normal .. Things in general lah huhu .. Some things r a bit weird .. And weirdness i tend to stay away .. Takuts .. Is it me or sbnrnya andang weird pun? I hope its jst silly me .. *random* ..

emm, buleh gaji kuar awal ka? Haha terpaksa ai cri loanshark owhs bulan ani .. Haha ada2 sja aku ni ..

owh, went to watch footie match Dpmm ngan Super Reds (?) wif my bebehs; dayat, vevie n potty .. Superfun! Manang n beujan n membimbo .. Hamid, i lebiu ok wawawa ..

owh .. I want raya shoes n dat pink handbag .. Uwa .. Somethng to cheer dis corazón ..

dududu~

:: kadang-kadang aku ... ::

2009-08-10T18:11:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

not feeling so gud 2day .. Tummy-ache .. Mcm exactly rah appendics ku dlu .. Ada kn urg appendics twice? Beuri ku ee .. Dri d mlm dh ni .. Uwaa

dalam lain2 hal, hes not around ; refrained myself kemarin frm trivia-ing hardcore-ly ; told hanif i is me huhu suweet boi ; site-observation ; Spanish confirmed wawawawa

kn ke klinik ong sum ping ku bwa sakit parut tpi liat lah .. Nyeh ..

bh, i is go ..

:: kadang-kadang aku ni obses ::

2009-08-09T05:52:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum ...

Selamat Pagi .... emm i cant sleep .. Huhu .. Harry Potter marathon ku plang smbil trivia .. Wawawa .. Pls brantikan aku dri khayal trivia-ing .. wawawa .. Sandi eee .. buleh cuti sehari? yea right .. but lets try okay ..

Neways, went to watch DPMM footie match last nite wif Dayat n Vevie .. mem-bimbo ok .. huhu .. Den singgah rah Salihah sal ada bbq .. Thanx gurls ..

I actually dun haf anything to share .. just the same old same old .. Need to get ready for next week .. And, pls Mr Paolo, i want Spanish .. Pls Pls Pls Pls ..

Babai all ..

.. dan bila dia tetap bertahan walaupun benci masih bersisa .. imy ..

I solemnly swear that I am
up to no good.

:: kadang-kadang luan asyik men trivia ::

2009-08-07T04:10:00.001+08:00

suruhnya ke ubd tanpa roadtax .. wawawa

:: kadang-kadang aku tetap kelabu ::

2009-08-05T04:09:00.000+08:00

Sighs .. Cnt sleep .. Biar hati ku hujan .. Biar semuanya hujan .. Biar ku tenggelam .. Tenggelam bersama semuanya ..

:: kadang-kadang tetap jua yang tertinggalkan ::

2009-08-04T18:07:00.002+08:00

drfiting away ..

amat rapuh .. and now u're backing away also .. sighs .. how am i suppose to get up again? .. how m i suppose to cope with everything else lagi? m i suppose to go back to zero? ..

life is still zero without zerolife ..

:: kadang-kadang aku mencoba untuk mengerti ::

2009-08-02T23:09:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

spent my nite replying bday wishes in FB .. Thanx people .. =)

and now im suppose to head to bed but hmm .. havnt really checked the timetable lagi .. plus i dun think i can sleep early ni with such mixed feelings inside .. dududu~~

Spent my Sunday aher tdr .. aher bangun .. liat dvd .. tdr .. makan .. bla bla bla ..

Nyeh .. lame post ..

Bah .. im out .. nanti th buat post yg nda cecapi ..

:: kadang-kadang aku dan hari jadiku ::

2009-08-02T04:54:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum ...

and i cudnt sleep at this hour .. atukan aku slalu awal tdr .. well, awal-er than selalunya lah .. emmm .. melayan perasaan mode .. wawa ;p

Neways, last Thursday was my last day at SRKMM .. I didnt tell or inform any of my pra kiddies that I wud be leaving .. Drg slalu cari Cg Sonita so if aku nada, nda jua papa tu .. haha menyamal usulku aa .. "Cikgu Kartina, Cikgu Sonita is here?" .. Atu soalan yg slalu diajukan bila aku ambil drg d klas .. Im so gonna miss them .. Hahah spesis penangis mcm aku ani, mesti ada yg expect aku menangis mcm c Dayat yg sdh menjangkakn situasi ini =p .. Awu, i cried d krita while aku mase rah parking lot skulah .. Bek jua aku park d bawah sorang2 so nada urg lah .. Haha .. mcm kan sidak2 ai menangis d krita aa ... haha .. Thanx Ajes for the words of comfort to calm me down that day .. ahaks .. "ada urg menangis tadi .." nyeh

As for today, my day was filled with love .. Thank you to my two babes, Dayat n Vevie for the lunch and the cake n the gift and that part kamu sengaja biarkan urg Pizza Hut menyanyi dengan gitar2nya .. wawa malu i tu .. Tho, i feel it ;) .. Thank u girls .. And thank u to my kaka for the cake .. Kek yg memahami hatiku dan jiwa ku .. bulan dan bintang .. wawa .. I loff my family kay .. THAT much =D!! And Ajes, thanks for the cute cake .. ailofiu juwa .. Greetings from family and friends, alhamdullillah .. Thank you so much <3

Well, dalam gembira ada sedihnya .. Balanced! Kau biarkan rindu ku jatuh berguguran ..

A funny story .. funny kan? haha .. well, my sister was buying my cake tadi skali she called me and sed shes locked out of her car PASAL Haziq tetidur d keta and the car is locked ... Nyaman ia tdo be-ekon2 and nda tedangar mamanya katuk2 rah jendela keta .. alahai .. ehe .. membari garam ati and cali .. wawawawa .. i bet aku pun nda sadar kali tu if aku tetdo jua erks :x

Me-random: My roadtax mati .. Aduhai gimana mau kuliah .. hahah .. Serviced my car .. Kalau bulan Julai aku makan tayar, this month makan keta plang tu aa .. Sabar sja .. I will chill ..

.. when some stay and some go ..

:: kadang-kadang betul betul rindu ::

2009-08-01T03:25:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

Finally Im updating my blog .. Been meaning to update but Im not sure what to type and what to share and what not to share ..

But for today, it's my day =) .. Aku hujan di hari jadiku memikirkan segala yg telah terjadi dan bagaimana mengharungi hari depan ... sighs .. Kat, think happy thoughts please .. As for today Im planning to spend my birthday with my loved ones .. Lunch date wif two of my bestest girls .. dinner with another best girl of mine .. other plans, im not sure .. Happy Birthday me~~ Semoga aku bisa lebih matang dalam mengharungi hidupku dunia dan akhirat .. Semoga aku sentiasa ingat untuk belajar daripada kesilapan .. Semoga aku kuat untuk memilih keputusanku .. Semoga lebih rajin .. Semoga semoga semoga semoga .. And also Happy Birthday to those yg share their birthday with mine, Hana (my niece), Zekri, Faezah and Syazwana .. Enjoy ur day owh bday celebrants ..

and thanks frens and family for the birthday wishes .. thanx for putting a smile on my face ..

...... mebe i'll update later ......

said to me by a darling of mine:

"Some part of him is still Kat's eh?" .. =) tho hes not around he is also still a part of me .. Thank you for such a nice July ..

:: kadang-kadang ada rindu berat ::

2009-07-17T21:06:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

kids nvr fail to surprise me .. Like bebe ammar ku .. Ia kiut sabut 'nonut' but now ia sabut 'donut' sbb ia ingat time aku luruskn ia .. I miss nonut owhs ..

went to McD tdi wif ajes .. Thanx jis .. Minda kusut yatah membimbo sja tdi hehe ..

tidur atau liat nur kasih? Aiya .. Bh, mliat Nur Kasih th nah ..

planning mau sleep d rimba esuk sal mau liat APM 2009 .. Excited kn liat DSN .. ehe n Kuburan bnd ..

bh, main tia Nur Kasih owhs

:: kadang-kadang ada rindu yang terlalu ::

2009-07-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum,

sedang menantikan waktu untuk pulang .. sambil atu mkn donut dri kantin ehe sja kan menapau kan utk ammar pasal last few days ia ckp rah mama ku, 'ma, makan nonut ma' .. Wawawa so cute .. Mudahan sja ia mau nonut hari ani ..

goin to watch HP's Half Blood Prince later wif them choir frens .. At least 4 of them lah .. Excited amat .. Yatah, asal loceng bunyi kul 12.30 ani, tarus ai ke admin n mnyain n pulang .. Haha jamm plang tu aa nyeh ..

owh, selamat satu tahun kemarin .. Julai datang lagi pada ku .. Mungkin berbeda namun perasaan tetap sama .. Wondering knapa ia ada ampai2 d sana lately huhu ampai2 lah juwa ..

anyways, happy birthday Jis .. Ailofiu ok ;p

bh ee gtg .. Will try to enjoy HP later walaupun hati ini life nya zero .. Where is u? sighs :'(

:: kadang-kadang lupa lupa ingat ::

2009-07-15T00:52:00.001+08:00

im so malas to layan my emo at the moment .. Time is almost up ok Kat! The world doesnt evolve around me sja .. Menerima apasja yg akan terjadi seadanya .. Im jst going to keep quiet within my own solitude and wat ever dats comfortable ..

zerolife is at zero owhs ..

:: kadang-kadang aku ingin bercerita namun ... ::

2009-07-10T20:21:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

when i least expect it, it happened .. july wud be bulan's month .. Biar aku sja yg fhm .. Anyway, ive been reducing my time spent rah irc but last nite I was a bit bored so park nick sja .. N guess sapa yg ada .. Bulan! .. So kami ceta2 d open sja semalam like dulu2 .. Omong kosong .. Haha i jst miss having him around, atu sja ok .. And owh, i doubt ia tau atu aku sal nick ku lain or ia buat2 nda tau jua .. Namun, semalam tidak mungkin sama dengan hari ini lagi =) .. Dan julai datang kembali pada ku ..

went buat bju raya tdi wif my sis d belukut .. Ahaks d mana tu nah .. I cuma ada satu kain sja yth hoping gaji ni kuar ekeke mungkin cuma impian kali .. And kadai atu pun ragu2 kn terima tempahan lagi .. Owh tidak~ ai mau antar lg waa .. Haha

ai kangen owhs! Buleh wind of change ka? Haha random .. Hidup jgn zero k ..

and owh, ekon d living room bisa d switch on sdh .. Whee =D .. Trimas owh bro-in-law ..

ok, aku mood raya sdh wlupun aku tau mungkin aku bnyk stay d rmh sja ni huhu .. Or mebe not .. Wishful thinking ;p bh, membyr puasa th dulu ehe

okai, im out .. Buenas noches ..

// i cannot give you what you seek ...

:: kadang-kadang aku hot and cold ::

2009-07-09T19:59:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

meredah hujan hanya karena kek coklat .. hmm .. Im sleepy sdh .. Tpi aku mau liat ceta Keliwon krg ..

i tink i shud take panadols .. nda nyaman rasa owhs .. and plis plis kuarkn gaji, ai mau byr kerita ..

suk mebe antar kain ke tailor for raya .. Satu sahaja unless ada gaji .. Wawawa bnyk komitmen jua itu gaji walaupun walau ..

less than a month til the new sem and that other thingy .. Takuts .. N owh, Jan's wif me at SRKMM .. Kewlness, ada dgn ku .. Huhu

wow, merandom brabis .. Actually, i dunno mana drg kawan-kawan ai .. Or mebe drg nda tau d mana aku .. =)

-i asked him to stay but i was the one who left-

:: kadang-kadang dunia terasa kosong aka zerolife ::

2009-07-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum ..

wow .. Chaq kira the lowest tdi rah Mentor namun they decided to bwa all 3 protege-s to the finals .. Walau apapun, ai lebiu Mas Idayu ..

my fren called 'baby' reminded me to update dis blog of mine .. Belum terpanggil wa lately .. Owh well~~

Having sore throat since emm, Tuesday .. Bimbo ku dtg, beuri takut A H1N1 .. Went rah Emergency d Ripas but sampai rah stage 1 sja .. Lama menanti owhs .. Everytime terasa mcm angat2 dingin, tepaksa th makan panadol .. Aku ni lgi spesis yg nda pandai talan pil .. Terkial2 ai menalan panadol ani ..

Starting work again tomorrow .. Im nerbes .. With all the swine flu and all .. With me yg senantiasa beuri ehe .. Smoga esok lebih baik ..

I miss my gurls owhs .. Havent been out wif them in ages .. Sighs .. Mebe pasal aku juwa .. But no dwelling in the past .. ~Menarilah dan terus tertawa, walau dunia tak seindah syurga~ .. Cant wait to jumpa some of them next semester .. Im truly sorry ..

Notakaki: bulan ani aku makan tayar .. sasax qu ..

.. Madah Berhelah ..

:: kadang-kadang aku bimbo ::

2009-07-05T11:57:00.000+08:00

update .. nda .. update .. nda .. update .. nda .. update .. nda .. update .. nda .. update .. nda .. -updated-